DIARY DATA ENTRY 62

Romance Is Rape By Seduction
 By Adam Shane Lawes

MY DIARY DIGITAL DATA ENTRY 62 OF 145

The two month period has now past and I am now eligible to receive unemployment benefits since I was wrongfully terminated from my job for misconduct by my cruel, corrupt, conservative, corporate manager at the start of March this year - and which I was then consequently denied unemployment benefits for the last two months as a result. And both my unfair termination from my job by my cruel, corrupt, conservative, corporate manager - and also my survival for the last two months since I was consequently made homeless - have both been documented here in detail in some of my earlier diary data entries. And as I have now stated in this particular diary data entry - I am now eligible to receive unemployment benefits - However I have made a decision to not receive unemployment benefits and to instead stay here living at the cemetery - And there are three reasons for this decision that I have now made - The first reason is because the government has privatised aspects of welfare in our social system by outsourcing many of its welfare duties to the private sector in the form of private sector job agencies that are paid by the government to put people into employment - However the problem is that those private sector job search agencies have a reputation for showing no compassion, nor care for the unemployed people that they are assigned by the government to find jobs for - because those private sector job search agencies are constituted of profit driven corporations - and there is obviously nothing wrong with being profit driven - however especially when it comes to social concerns such as welfare - compassion and care must also occur - however instead of compassion and care - those private sector job search agencies have a reputation for harassing people and causing anxiety and anger in the unemployed people that they are assigned and paid by the government to find jobs for - and then shoving and forcing those unemployed people that they are assigned and paid by the government to find employment for - into whatever horrible, degrading and miserable jobs that are out there and that they can find - and without any compassion nor concern for helping the unemployed people to become skilled and/or find work in a job that suits their individual personality, individual personal skills and individual passion - and because I dropped out of high school at the age of sixteen after going to twelve schools and I have no formal educational qualifications - and then I have spent my life since being a drug user, drug abuser, drug addict and a drug dealer from the age that I was sixteen years old whilst being enslaved, exploited, used, abused and oppressed in a mentally mundane and physically heavy and hard horrible manual labour job working for a cruel, corrupt corporation until I was unfairly terminated for misconduct and consequently denied unemployment benefits for two months and made homeless - And also because I still have a shortly shaved head from when I shaved all my hair off to the scalp with a cut throat razor when I was first made homeless two months ago now - and also because I have tattoos of a glock handgun on each of my hands - and tattoos of a dagger on each of my arms - and a tattoo of a black outlined heart that inside has the tattooed words – “romance is rape by seduction” - inside that black heart tattoo on my chest over my heart - all of which I got back when I was a drug user, a drug abuser, a drug addict and a drug dealer and a horrible manual labour corporate slave - And so it is obvious that my appearance, personality and past history does not look very good for my resume and any job searching and employment placement - and so therefore I would be shoved and forced back into horrible, miserable, mentally mundane and physically heavy and horrible manual labour jobs for the rest of my life - and where I would rot away as a slave to cruel, corrupt corporations in a miserable, passion-less existence until I die - and so that is the first reason that I am not going to apply for unemployment benefits and I am instead going to stay living here at the cemetery. And the second reason is that I am no longer literally homeless because over the last two months I have learnt to survive by getting my nightly meal from the church charity food van - and I have made my home here at the cemetery in my very own underground, secret, subterranean, catacomb chamber room to live in now - and I am happy living here underground in my catacomb chamber room at the cemetery - and so that is the second reason that I am not going to apply for unemployment benefits and I am instead going to stay living here at the cemetery. And the third reason that I am not going to apply for unemployment benefits now that I am entitled to them - and I am instead going to stay living here at the cemetery - is because the only job that I am passionate about and that I have ever wanted to do is to be an artist - because I love doing my artwork - especially my writing now in these diary data entries of mine here - and even though it is the only form of art that I am making and that I can do at this stage of my life now - and even though I am not making any money and nor am I unfortunately able to financially supporting myself through my art-work - at least through my artwork here I am finally existing as an artist - because art and existing as an artist is all that I am truly passionate about - So thank-you to the world-wide-web internet for allowing me to now exist as an artist. And so those three abovementioned reasons that I have emphasised in this diary data entry - and which I have also described in detail in many of my previous diary data entries over the last two months - are why I have now decided to not apply for unemployment benefits now that I am now entitled to - And I am instead going to stay living here in my catacomb chamber room in the cemetery - And exist as an artist here on the internet world-wide-web.

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