Romance
Is Rape By Seduction
By
Adam Shane Lawes
MY DIARY DIGITAL
DATA ENTRY 64 OF 145
Tonight I have been thinking how isolated and
comfortable it is down here in my subterranean catacomb chamber room here at
the cemetery - And besides being creative and making my artwork here on the
internet - if I had to now work to support myself until I hopefully eventually
make it with my artwork and be successful with my artwork - then besides my
art-work - the only other job that I can think of right now that I would enjoy
and care about doing to support myself until I hopefully be successful with my
art-work - is to be a cemetery caretaker here at Melbourne cemetery to support
myself - and live and work in the one-roomed small cemetery caretaker's cottage
- that also hopefully has a basement for me to create and exist underground in
as well - For despite being a person who does not like otherwise being in the
outdoors - I actually enjoy walking through the cemetery grounds at night with
all of its stone statues, tombstones, memorials and decaying graves covered by
thorns and bracken that are hidden beneath all of the crow filled trees here -
For I find the stone and thorn filled cemetery grounds tranquil, beautiful,
emotional and intriguingly eerie - And the cemetery grounds are so much more
aesthetically beautiful, peaceful, tranquil and comfortable than parks -
because I hate parks - because parks are so contrived and are always filled
with annoying suburban people - unlike the cemetery which is so dark and
tranquil - And in terms of living inside a cemetery - well after two months of
experience now - it does not seem morbid to me in anyway - and nor am I really
that afraid living here within the cemetery - although I was initially -
however my initial fear of being homeless at the time I think was more
overwhelming than the fear of hiding out and living inside the cemetery - which
I have now become accustomed to - however there is a sense of some kind of
subliminal, underlying, unknown fear that is always here within me whilst I am
living inside the cemetery - but it is not so much a feeling of being scared
and instead it is more like a constant sense of eerieness that increases from
time to time - but which I seem to be able to cope and deal with. And by doing
so I have now been able to make my home and do my art-work here in my
subterranean, catacomb, chamber, confessional tomb room within the beautiful
dark tranquility of Melbourne cemetery - And when I physically die I want these
diary data entries of mine here on the global internet world-wide-web to
continue to exist after I am physically dead and I go to hell until it is my
time to reincarnate back into a physical human body on our earth again.
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Adam Shane Lawes
