Romance
Is Rape By Seduction
By
Adam Shane Lawes
MY DIARY DIGITAL
DATA ENTRY 106 OF 145
Tonight I want to write in this diary data entry of
mine about the work-ethic - because the work-ethic is something that has been
used against me in my life to make me and my life as oppressed and as miserable
and horrible as possible - And firstly when it comes to work - work is meant to
be something that we are passionate about and want to do - and in that context
there is nothing wrong with people who are workaholics because they are
passionate about and love their work - However having said that - it is often
very hard for people to perform the type of work that they are passionate about
and want to do - and in the context of my life and being an artist - as I
stated in my previous diary data entry - it is very hard to be successful and
financially support yourself as an artist - and so before I was unfairly
terminated from my job and made homeless by my corrupt, corporate store manager
this year - I worked in a mentally mundane and physically heavy and horrible
manual labour nightshift job in a supermarket so that I could financially
support myself whilst I worked on my artwork and kept trying to be successful
with my artwork - However in that mentally mundane and physically heavy and
horrible manual labour job - I was paid to work the full-time shift hours of 38
hours a week - however because my store manager at that supermarket is an
extremely cruel, corrupt, corporate, class-driven person who viewed me as
stupid because I am from a poor background to then intimidate, enslave,
exploit, oppress and use me in order to make me do masses and masses of unpaid
overtime each week - because he is a malicious, insecure, greed and status
driven cruel, corrupt, corporate, class-driven person who misused and abused
his position of power - and now in my psychological profile analysis of that
cruel, greedy, corrupt, corporate store manager - firstly I know that he is a
Libra as star-sign person - and as I have explained previously in one of my
earlier diary data entries - I have been used too many times in my life for some
reason by a lot - not all - but a lot of Libra as star sign people - and so in
my psychological profile analysis of his cruel, corrupt, corporate ways - it is
possible that his overwhelming need for greed and status that he attains
through his misuse and abuse of his position of power - has something to do
with him being a Libra as star sign person - and also in my psychological
profile analysis to try and understand the reasons for that cruel, corrupt,
corporate store manager's ways - he is also an Australian originally from India
and so it is possible that he viewed me as like a non-Indian Australian version
of an untouchable because I am from a poor background - and also in this
context it is possible that my former cruel, corrupt, corporate store manager
from India who is extremely class orientated and status driven - is trying to
replicate and manifest the class and caste social system that has existed in
the ways and the psyche of India for so many centuries - here in his own life
now in Australia through his lifestyle and especially through his extremely
class and status driven behaviour which manifested in him being an extremely
cruel, corrupt, corporate manager who intimidated, enslaved, oppressed, used
and exploited me in my last job - where I was legally paid to work 38 hours a
week - and where I just wanted to do my 38 hours of paid work a week so that I
could financially support myself and also do my artwork - however that cruel,
corrupt, corporate store manager intimidated me into doing two hours of unpaid
work before my shift was supposed to start - and then working unpaid through my
paid one hour a night in total meal breaks - and then doing one hour of unpaid
work after my shift was supposed to end - which was a total of 20 hours of
unpaid work a week on top of my 38 hours per week shift that I was paid to do -
and work and life was not meant to be that horrible - but out of fear I did all
that unpaid overtime just to try and keep my job - and until I eventually
became so drained, rundown and overworked and extremely angry at my horrible,
enslaved, oppressed, exploited and used situation - that I got very sick with a
bad case of the flu for three days - and then I was consequently and unfairly
terminated from my job and made homeless by my cruel, greedy, corrupt,
corporate store manager - and which I have described that greedy, cruel,
corrupt, corporate store manager's ways in specific detail in one of my earlier
diary data entries - And so this is a blatant example of how the work-ethic can
be used against you to enslave you, exploit you, oppress you, hurt you and make
your life extremely miserable and horrible - and from this analysis of that
cruel, corrupt, corporate store manager - it can also be seen that if the
capitalist system has to exploit people so badly in the abovementioned ways -
then it is in trouble - or maybe it is only that supermarket corporation that
is in trouble if it can only survive through exploiting people so severely as
that cruel, corrupt, corporate store manager exploited me - And another example
of how the work-ethic can be used to make your life miserable and extremely
horrible is the ways of my malicious, abusive stepmother in her horrible home
that I was in from the age that I was eleven years old until I was sixteen
years old - and where that malicious, abusive, Anglo-Saxon Australian
stepmother took away my guitar, my books, my pet cat and my notebook diary that
I use to always love to write in - and in my psychological profile analysis now
of my malicious, abusive stepmother - I will state that she is a greedy,
malicious, workaholic who wrongfully believes that art is a waste of time and
meaningless and art is not a form of work in itself - and she also wrongfully
believes that artists and anyone who likes to spend time alone has
psychological problems - because my malicious, abusive stepmother is afraid of
art and afraid to be alone because she herself has so many undealt with
psychological problems and undealt with issues - and so much art makes people
think about their personal problems and life's issues that they need to deal
with - and spending time alone is when your personal problems and issues haunt
you and make you face them and you then have to start dealing with them - and
so my malicious, abusive stepmother wrongfully demonised both art and spending
time alone because she is afraid of art and spending time alone because of all
her undealt with personal psychological problems and issues - and so I had all
of my beloved possessions taken away from me at the age that I was eleven years
old - and I was banned from doing anymore artwork by malicious, abusive
stepmother - and as punishment for my passion for art and doing my artwork and
spending time alone - and also because my malicious stepmother is a sexist feminist
chauvinist who hates males and wrongfully views males as stupid and to be used
and abused - I was then made to pick up horse manure one hour before school,
two hours after school and all day on weekends from her horses on that horrible
horse farm in that horrible home that I lived in from the age that I was eleven
years old until I was sixteen years old - and my malicious, abusive stepmother
hated art and me so much that I remember one time that I was on the high school
bus coming home from school and someone was playing the soundtrack to an
Australian film set in Melbourne - and the song playing back then on the school
bus was of a post-punk-early-electronica Melbourne band that were a precursor
to industrial music – and back then on that school-bus - I was so in awe by
that song and especially its lyrics that I passionately and excitedly wrote the
lyrics to that song down in the back of one of my high school notebooks as I
heard the song being played - mainly so that I could analyse those song lyrics
and sing them to myself back then as my years of extreme anxiety from all the
abuse in that horrible, abusive stepfamily home had begun to turn into
suppressed anger - and so as I stated I passionately wrote those song lyrics
down in the back of one of my high school books - however my malicious, abusive
stepmother found those song lyrics of that song by that band that I had written
down on the school bus - and she stupidly thought those song lyrics were my
artwork - and so the next day at school I was called into the school
psychologist's office - and there standing with him was my malicious stepmother
with my notebook with those lyrics written down by me in the back in the back
of my notebook - and my malicious stepmother was arguing with the school psychologist
as she tried to use those song lyrics from that band that I had written down in
the back of one of my high school notebooks on the school bus to have the
school psychologist diagnose me as schizophrenic and have me committed to a
psychiatric ward in a mental institution - and so in that school psychologist's
office and over the demands of my malicious stepmother - I had to explain to
the school psychologist that they were not my words as they were lyrics from a
song that I had heard - and I wrote down those lyrics both because I could
relate to what they meant and also so that I could analyse them even more for
more meanings that I had continued to find within that particular song from
that industrial band - and I then explained that there was nothing wrong with
writing those lyrics down and there was nothing wrong with those words from
that band's song lyrics - and much to the dismay and annoyance of my malicious
abusive stepmother - thankfully the school psychologist ignored her demands to
have me committed to a psychiatric ward in a mental institution because of that
band's song lyrics that I had written down in the back of one of my high school
notebooks - however upon arriving home that afternoon from school - I was
threatened by malicious stepmother that if she ever found me writing down song
lyrics or any other form of artwork again - that I would be punished in ways
more horrible than I could ever imagine - and then I was sent back out to pick
up horse manure again from her horses on her horrible horse farm home - and so
that is another example of the work-ethic being used against you to make your
life horrible - and my malicious, abusive, alcohol-drinking, anti-depressant
addicted, poker-machine playing gambling addicted, greedy, conniving, corrupt,
workaholic, stressed stepmother use to constantly brag about her strong
work-ethic and all the work that she used to do - however like any workaholic -
she is doing it all for her own personal self-gain - and so there is nothing
moral about being a workaholic and there is no reason for anyone to be allowed
to be self-righteous about being a workaholic because they are doing it for
their own personal self-gain - and in addition to this - by being a workaholic
- my malicious, abusive stepmother never spent any time alone dealing with her
personal problems and her undealt with issues - because her workaholic ways
were always an escape from doing the necessary hard personal work by facing and
dealing with and working through her personal problems and undealt with issues
- and so by being a workaholic my malicious, abusive stepmother was an even
more cruel, nasty person because of all her undealt with personal problems and
issues that she continued to hide from and not deal with by being a workaholic
- And so from these abovementioned two examples I hope that it is possible for
you to see how you should never let the work-ethic be used against you to
intimidate you, make you feel guilty, enslave you, exploit you, oppress you and
make your life miserable and horrible - And in addition to this - in an
astrological context - as I have explained in detail in one of my previous
diary data entries - we have just finished existing in the 2000 year
astrological Age Of Pisces which was co-ruled and influenced by its astrological
polar sign of Virgo - and the astrological sign of Virgo is based on the
work-ethic - which is why the various forms of the master and servant ways of
the past 2000 years existed and were so prominent - however now we are in the
transition period and the start of the 2000 year astrological Age Of Aquarius
which is co-ruled and influence by its astrological polar sign of Leo - and so
we must now work at destroying the horrible enslavement-work-ethic and master
and servant influences of the 2000 year astrological Age Of Pisces that we have
just emerged from - in order to make this new 2000 year astrological Age Of
Aquarius as best as we possibly can - and in the context of this specific diary
data entry of mine - that also obviously includes making our work situation the
best that we can.
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Adam Shane Lawes
