Romance
Is Rape By Seduction
By
Adam Shane Lawes
MY DIARY DIGITAL
DATA ENTRY 25 OF 145
Whilst I was walking through the dark, tranquil
grounds here at Melbourne Cemetery last night - I think that I have found a way
to start dealing with these issues of abuse, hurt and anger that are still
burning inside me. For when I was wandering around here last night in the cold
and the fog, I was becoming increasingly frustrated because I could find no
solution to the dilemma that I have outlined in my previous diary data entries
- Because obviously, unlike in my nightmares, I practically cannot kidnap the
people that I want to, and then bring them back here to catacombs that may be
hidden underground here at the cemetery so that I can then interrogate or confess
to them. So alone here in the fog and the cold last night - I started to
complain about my dilemma to all the stone statues of the angels that surround
me and look down on me here at Melbourne Cemetery. And then as I was
complaining to the stone statues alone in the dark, I could see some of the
features of the people that I have abused and wanted to hurt in my life - And
then I also stopped at a life-size statue of Jesus Christ being crucified, and
I began to image that stone statue of Jesus Christ as personifying the people
who have abused and hurt me and made me angry in my life. And then the idea of
performing my stone statue rituals here at the cemetery dawned upon me - For I
can use the life-size stone statue of Jesus Christ being crucified to vent out
all my hurt and anger on from all the abuse that has been done to me in my life
- and then after I have done that and hopefully resolved and stopped, or at
least lessened all my pent up hurt and anger from the abuse that has been done
to me in my life - Then I am going to deal with the second issue of my dilemma
- which is to try and resolve and stop, or at least lessen the guilt from the
abuse that I have done or wanted to do in my life and which I still feel guilty
about. So now I have a plan - which is to deal with my issues of hurt and abuse
and anger and guilt using the stone statues here at Melbourne Cemetery in my
stone statue rituals - So tomorrow night at midnight, I am going to perform my
first stone statue ritual - and then I will write about it here in my next
diary data entry after I have finished that first stone statue ritual tomorrow
night.
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