Romance
Is Rape By Seduction
By
Adam Shane Lawes
MY DIARY DIGITAL
DATA ENTRY 66 OF 145
I Am Adam
and have you ever noticed the way some Age Of Pisces religions demonise the
Devil and seeking knowledge - As biblically speaking since the so-called fall
of Adam and Eve from paradise in the Garden Of Eden here on our earth the Devil
that metaphorically manifested there as the serpent is actually our God who
tried to teach us humans to understand knowledge in order to become more
intelligent and aware to progressively evolve ourselves and our earth – As
biblically speaking Adam and Eve were behaving the same way before they ate
from the tree of knowledge in the Garden of Eden, as they were still ‘sinning’
but they were just unaware and ‘happy’ in the proverbial ‘ignorance is bliss’
context, and thus because the loss of innocence and realisations are sometimes
painful experiences and hard to deal with but necessary for us to stop doing
wrongful bad behaviour and become a better person and more aware in order to
try and progressively evolve – so biblically speaking Adam and Eve were
actually still in paradise but it only changed in appearance because it was a
fall from a previous ‘sinning’ badly behaving state of blissful ignorance, and
thus in this context it changed because they were no longer blissfully
ignorant, as through knowledge they lost their innocence by experiencing their
first painful realisation about their ‘sinful’ wrongful bad behaviour, which is
necessary as I previously stated to stop them from doing their wrongful bad
behaviour by becoming increasingly more aware and active by being better people
that realise and learn from their mistakes to try and then keep progressively
evolving themselves and our planet earth. And tonight I have also been thinking
about what I have written in some of my previous diary data entries about how
comfortable and suited I now feel living underground here within the dirt in my
subterranean catacomb chamber room at the cemetery - as compared to how
uncomfortable to the point of alternating anxiety and anger I feel in the
sterile aesthetics of offices, and other conservative corporate creations -
like in the horrible, harshly overly bright white lit, sterile, annoying
aesthetics of the supermarket where I worked the mentally mundane and
physically heavy and horrible manual labour nightshift for too many years until
I was wrongfully terminated for misconduct two months ago and was then consequently
made homeless - And now that I am living underground here at the cemetery - I
now keep wondering what it is about subterranean aesthetics that I find so
attractive, comfortable, intense and powerful - and I can't really pinpoint
what it actually is that I love about living within the dirt in my cemetery
catacomb - for there just seems to be something attractive and intense about
darkness, dirt and my cemetery, catacomb chamber tomb room and living down here
now in my very own underground underworld subterranean existence. And there are
horrible aspects to hell as depicted by artists and religions throughout
history - however not all of those dark dwelling places in hell are places of
punishment, including permanent punishment, where sinners or so-called sinners
reside when they physically die and in-between physical reincarnations because
lets face it we have all seemingly sinned in some or many ways whether it be
emotionally and/or mentally and/or physically and/or psychologically and/or
psychically and/or sexually - And there are also beautiful dark dwelling places
in hell that are created and exist because there are souls-spirits-people who
are meant to be there and who are attracted to dark aesthetics and have a dark,
brooding, personality and nature that are not necessarily evil in the biblical
sense but like all the other aspects of hell it is still dependent on their
past personal ‘sin’ for want of a better term - and thus when those
spirits-souls reincarnate back onto this earth again into another physical
reincarnation - they then sometimes seek to replicate, create and surround
themselves with the aesthetics and ways that are similar to that of their
dwelling place in hell and what they are meant to do in their next physical
reincarnation on earth based on how they behaved in their past-physical
reincarnation on earth and in hell before they reincarnate back onto the earth
again into a physical human body - And in terms of the overall cosmology of
hell - because there are so many different souls-spirits-people - there are
also many different types and aesthetics of spirit-soul dwelling places in hell
- and each different dwelling place in hell has different angels that reside
and rule their specific place within hell - And because aspects of our
existence are always changing and/or evolving and/or ending and/or beginning -
the way hell exists and functions, in the same way with similar spirit-soul
dwelling places, continually changes and/or evolves and/or ends and/or begins -
And for us humans on our earth our spirit-soul in-between physical
reincarnations dwelling called hell exists underground within our actual
physical earth - And the so often seen light and tunnel that is reported in
many near death experiences and is often depicted as occurring at the time of
our death or near death - is actually the light of the entrance to the tunnel
that if we choose to go into it - it will take us to our specific dwelling
place in hell when we physically die and in-between physical reincarnations on
our earth - and when we physically die we should ask our god the devil to get
the angels of hell to take us to where we are meant to dwell in hell before we
reincarnate back onto our earth again into a physical human body - as our god
on our earth is also the actual devil who wants us to learn and evolve from
knowledge and to not fear knowledge nor demonise it - and our god the devil
wants to be cleared of the evil personifications that have been associated to
our god the devil throughout history because humans have wrongfully demonised
knowledge because they sometimes fear it. And for some reason whether it be my
state library card for books or my Apple iPhone number the computers of our
earth always randomly brand me with a number that ends in 666 - and I subjectively,
personally, individually do not like any of that heavy-metal music that
misinterprets the devil - and I am not sure about numerology and/or if that 666
number even means anything - but for some reason the computers of our world
like to randomly give it to me as I now type this on my Apple iPhone on our
earth's global internet world-wide-web.
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Adam Shane Lawes
