Romance
Is Rape By Seduction
By
Adam Shane Lawes
MY DIARY DIGITAL
DATA ENTRY 95 OF 145
Tonight I have been wondering what it would be like
to be a live-in cemetery caretaker - because as I have stated previously here
in one of my earlier diary data entries - after hiding out and living here at
the cemetery since I was made homeless earlier this year - being a cemetery
caretaker would be a job that I would like to do whilst I work on my artwork
and also try to be successful and make a living out of my artwork - however
there does not seem to be any live-in cemetery caretakers around anymore - is
it not economically viable enough to have someone live onsite at a cemetery anymore
I wonder - however you think that it would be a good thing to have a live-in
cemetery caretaker - because besides maintaining the cemetery - the live-in
cemetery caretaker could also provide on-site security at the cemetery that
they are the live-in caretaker of - especially to stop any possible vandalism
at the cemetery during the night when a cemetery is closed to the general
public - and so now I also wonder has the job of a cemetery caretaker possibly
become redundant due to an inability to find cemetery caretakers to take on the
job of being a live-in cemetery caretaker - and I also now wonder if previous
cemetery live-in caretakers in the past become unsettled and continually fled -
leaving the cemetery commissions with no future live-in cemetery caretakers to
take over the job and live in the cemetery in order to look after it - and I
also now wonder if previous cemetery caretakers fled their job as a live-in
cemetery caretaker - and if so what made them possibly runaway and leave their
job as a live-in cemetery caretaker - was there a supernatural cause or event
that made them want to leave - for being a believer in the supernatural and the
post-physical existence of the soul - and also having some personal
supernatural experiences throughout my life - would many live-in cemetery
caretakers throughout history have possibly experienced and been disturbed by
supernatural experiences at night whilst working as a live-in cemetery
caretaker - for in my nightly wanderings through the cemetery grounds - although
I am often on edge - mainly against possible physical attack from people such
as vandals - there is some sense of the supernatural that permeates throughout
the entirety of the cemetery grounds - because sometimes when I am walking
through the cemetery at night - things sometimes seem to move slightly out of
the corner of my eyes - and just beyond my threshold of direct visibility and
conscious comprehension and understanding - And tonight when I got back
from my nightly meal at the church charity food van at the city's industrial
market warehouse carpark - I went back to sleep again and fell into a heavy
sleep - and I do not usually sleep at night as I only usually sleep in the day
- however maybe because of the very cold winter weather that is now here in
Melbourne - and also because of all the heavy and deep past personal issues
that I have been mentally dealing with and writing about lately here in my
diary data entries - my mind is now worn out and weary and needs the extra
sleep - so as I previously stated - tonight I fell into a deep sleep when I
came back from having my nightly meal and I woke up not that long ago now from
a deep sleep and a dream - and in my dream I dreamt that I was walking through
the cemetery and being instructed by some strange, surreal, cemetery dwelling
specter on the subject matter of how the tall, iron and steel and barbwire
covered fences and gates of Melbourne cemetery are fairly protective of the
cemetery grounds - however it would be better if they were replaced with a high
and all encompassing completely surrounding stone and concrete wall with
barbwire on top and impenetrable iron gates with barb wire on top - and then in
my dream the cemetery dwelling specter who was explaining this to me - showed
me a rusted and slightly broken part of the current cemetery fence - and
although it was still fairly impenetrable - in my dream it was like the whole
green painted wrought iron fence also had a red glow permeating from it - and
the red glow was very distinct and strong - and it was kind of like the dark,
intense glow of red neon lighting - and it somehow seemed as if that red glow
of light also protected the cemetery grounds as part of the iron fence -
however the red glow seemed to fade and then have a break in it at exactly the
same point that the iron fence was decayed and slightly broken - and although
this dullness and break in the bright red glow where the iron cemetery fence
was slightly broken posed no significant problems or threats from intruders -
it seemed that the sacred cemetery grounds needed to be distinctively
separated, shrouded and protected from the secular outside world of the living
- And then when I woke up from this dream I had an overwhelming urge to tell
the cemetery commission that it would be very beneficial for the cemetery if
the current somewhat decaying existing cemetery iron fence was replaced with
the all encompassing and protectiveness of the tall and thick stone and
concrete wall and gates from my dream - however I do not know how I would try
and explain to the cemetery commission if I ever had the chance - why this
beneficial but no doubt costly replacement of the current cemetery iron fence
with an all encompassing stone and concrete and barb wire wall and fence would
be beneficial - especially in the context of the red protective neon like glow
of the fence - as it appeared and why it appeared in my dream that I just had.
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