Romance
Is Rape By Seduction
By
Adam Shane Lawes
MY DIARY DIGITAL
DATA ENTRY 96 OF 145
I woke up this evening and went and got my nightly
meal from the church charity food van at the city's industrial market warehouse
carpark - and then when I came back - despite it being very cold now - I
decided that I would go for a walk through the cemetery - and as I was walking
through the cemetery grounds - I kept wondering about the dream that I had last
night - specifically in the aspect of the need for a newer more protective
cemetery fence and gates as was shown to me in my last night's dream - and
mainly because of possible vandals coming into the cemetery - and so now I have
been wondering what it is that motivates those people who wrongfully vandalise
the beautiful and emotional memorials of those who are physically deceased in a
cemetery - Is it always just random acts from nasty, malicious, immature brats
- who are more than likely drunk on alcohol and looking for something to indulge
their drunken, immature stupor upon - or is it sometimes the specific acts of
an abused relative, or a betrayed friend, or even a hurt victim of the
physically deceased person - who is acting out of and seeking some kind of
release from the pent up rage of personal issues and possible undealt with
legal aspects that have not been appropriately dealt with - and so with their
unfulfilled desire for revenge and vengeance they then may go and vandalise the
grave memorial of the deceased person who they are angry at - and so if it were
the latter possibility of the abovementioned two possibilities for the causes
of wrongful vandalism in a cemetery - you think that an angry person would do
something more elaborate than the typical mindless vandalism that occurs on
some cemetery memorials - like specifically stating or describing what it is
about the person that has made them feel so hurt and angry - however maybe that
would lead the authorities to find out who vandalised that specific cemetery
memorial in such an example - or also - maybe such a hurt and angry cemetery
vandal plans to specifically graffiti the cemetery memorial of a person that
they are angry at - however because of the eerie nature of a cemetery at night
combined with their fear of getting caught - in their act of vandalism they
instead behave fearfully, rashly, and quickly in their attack of vandalism - In
terms of an anger motivated example of an attack on a grave - if my nasty,
malicious abusive stepmother was dead - and I were to go to her grave to write
and release upon it whatever remaining hurt and anger and desire for venegeance
that I still have for her by writing on her tombstone - I would write on her
grave that she is a malicious, nasty, horrible, abusive, alcohol-drinking,
anti-depressant addicted, poker-machine playing gambling addicted,
psychologically (and thus also physically) extremely abusive person - However
in all honesty - I would rather vent all my remaining hurt and anger at my
malicious, abusive stepmother through writing here on the internet
world-wide-web as I have already done here in some of my previous diary data
entries - because it helps me a great deal when I type it here for the rest of
the world to see in these diary data entries of mine on the internet world-wide-web
- And also besides the fact that I am personally against the vandalism of any
grave memorial and any cemetery for whatever reason - I would also be too
afraid that I would be possibly haunted and bothered by my malicious
stepmother's spirit-ghost if I did vandalise her grave if she were dead - and
if I vented my anger and hurt by writing on her grave - and this is because I
never ever want to have anything to do with my stepmother again after the
horrific abuse that she put me through in her horrible home that I was in from
the age that I was eleven years old until I was sixteen years old - for as a
living person - I was able to finally remove myself from my malicious
stepmother's abuse and her presence when I ran away from home at the age of
sixteen years old - and fortunately my malicious, abusive stepmother does not
have psychic abilities - for if my malicious, abusive stepmother had psychic
abilities she would wrongfully use her psychic abilities to psychically attack
and abuse me and anyone else she wanted to in the same way that she maliciously
enjoyed to psychologically abuse me when I was in her physical presence - so
thankfully my malicious, abusive stepmother does not have psychic abilities
because she drove me over the edge with her extreme abuse when I was in her
physical presence from the age that I was eleven years old until I was sixteen
years old - and when I ran away from home at the age of sixteen years old I was
filled with so much hurt and anger and rage that I wanted to violently punish
and destroy her and her family - and I never ever want to see my stepmother
again - And so in terms of the concept of possibly vandalising her grave to
write down and vent my still remaining hurt and anger at my malicious, abusive
stepmother if she were dead - besides being personally against the vandalism of
any grave and any cemetery - I would also not vandalise my malicious
stepmother's grave if she were dead because I would be afraid that I would then
be haunted and bothered by my malicious, abusive stepmother's ghost - for if my
malicious second stepmother were dead - she may not be trapped in her specific
underworld dwelling place in hell until her next physical reincarnation and
next life on earth - as she may not have gone into the light of the tunnel that
takes our spirit-soul to its specific spirit-underworld dwelling place in hell
because straight after her physical death she would realise that she was wrong
in being an abusive atheist in her life - and then she would fear going into
the light of the tunnel into hell - because she would be afraid of being
punished in hell for her cruel, malicious, abusive behaviour here on our earth
in the life that she is living now - especially in the extreme
psychologically-physically abuse that she did to me from the age that I was
eleven years old until I was sixteen years old - And so besides personally
being against the vandalism of any grave and cemetery for whatever reason -
that is the first reason that I would never vandalise my malicious, abusive stepmother's
grave if she were dead - And the second reason is that I personally prefer to
vent all my hurt and anger and heal myself by writing about my malicious,
abusive second stepmother here in my diary data entries on the global internet
world-wide-web.
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Adam Shane Lawes
