Romance
Is Rape By Seduction
By
Adam Shane Lawes
MY DIARY DIGITAL
DATA ENTRY 101 OF 145
Living down here alone and isolated in my
subterranean catacomb chamber room at the cemetery - I have now realised that I
have some sense which I have always had from as far back as I can now remember
- where I can instinctively sense and know a person's bad points and type of
wrongful behaviour as soon as I meet them - and in my life - and maybe because
of all the abuse that I have experienced in my life - and also probably because
I have an acute awareness, analysis and admittance of my own bad points and
wrongful behaviour - especially from my past which I have now analysed and
described here previously in many of my diary data entries - For throughout my
life and as far back as I can remember now - when I meet people I instinctively
and automatically psychologically profile people in order to sense, understand
and know a person's bad points and wrongful behaviour - which I more than
likely have always instinctively done as a self-defense mechanism in order to
try and prevent myself from being hurt by anyone that I meet because of their
specific form or forms of wrongful behaviour - And this personal psychological
profiling that I do when I meet people is something that I have never actually
consciously trained myself to do - for the psychological profiling that I have
instinctively done throughout my life from a young age is something that always
happens instantaneously as soon as I meet someone - and without me even being
consciously aware of what I am doing - for as soon as I meet a person -
suddenly I am analysing them and can almost instantaneously sense that person's
bad points and their type or types of wrongful behaviour - and then I begin
consciously analysing and being aware of how I should behave, interact and deal
with that person - and also working out whether I should try and get that
person out of my life if the circumstances of the situation involved in meeting
that person make it possible - or if like in the past where I was forced to be
around horrible, abusive family people such as in my horrible abusive
stepfamily home - especially having to live with my abusive, alcoholic
stepmother in that horrible home - and also around the many annoying and
abusive children who would often gang up and bully me many times - especially
whenever I went to a new school during the twelve different schools that I went
to before I dropped out of school at the age that I was sixteen years old - or
also like in my last horrible mentally mundane and physically heavy and
horrible manual labour job where I worked until I was unfairly terminated and
made homeless by my former corrupt, corporate store manager who I have
described his corporate corruption earlier here in my diary data entries -
and especially in the last year that I was there - where I had to work
some nights with the casual shift working, drunken, alcoholic, bourgeois,
university students who would only work a couple of shifts a week so they could
have some extra cash for their beer drinking university parties - and those
bourgeois university students would all gang up on me together and bully me
just like the immature spoilt brat school children use to so many times at the
twelve schools that I went to growing up - and those bourgeois university
students at my last and only ever job in my life - would also call me stupid
trailer trash just like my abusive stepmother use to when I was young - because
of my background and because I am poor and also because I never finished high
school - and those bourgeois university students would also write insulting and
defamatory letters that were full of lies about me to the company's management
- especially in order to cover up for and protect their alcoholic university
student friend who would illegally come into work drunk and who would
repeatedly ridicule and insult me and who threw a box of tinned tuna hard at my
head which made me see stars and my head bleed and which I have described in
detail earlier here in my diary data entries - And so from these
above-mentioned examples it is obvious that there are many times in life where
we have to unfortunately be around people who we not only do not like - but who
are also abusive towards us - and even though I have always had the ability to
instinctively psychologically profile and read and know a person's bad points
and type or types of wrongful behaviour as soon as I met someone -
unfortunately knowing a person's bad points and type or types of wrongful behaviour
does not also give me the ability to know how to specifically defend myself
against that person or people's type or types of wrongful behaviour -
especially if I am forced to be around abusive people as I have described and
discussed in the above-mentioned examples - And now that I am alone and
isolated living underground in my subterranean, catacomb chamber room here at
the cemetery - the dilemma of not knowing how to deal with abusive people
despite knowing their bad points and type or types of wrongful behaviour is not
something that I now have to deal with at this stage of my life and my
existence - however I would still like to somehow eventually know how to
resolve this dilemma in my existence.
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Adam Shane Lawes
