Romance
Is Rape By Seduction
By
Adam Shane Lawes
MY DIARY DIGITAL
DATA ENTRY 114 OF 145
Tonight my new friend Alice is sleeping in her new
temporary bed in a sleeping bag in the sheltered upstairs part of this grave
memorial - as I sleep down here as I usually do in my catacomb chamber room -
and I let Alice slide one of the life-size stone female statues that I have
been bringing back here to this grave memorial over the hatch that opens up and
which is the only access down here to my catacomb chamber room - and for the
same reason I also gave Alice my hunting knife that I keep with me here at the
cemetery for protection if needed - for her to sleep with also for peace of
mind - however Alice is still obviously unsettled and uncomfortable and getting
used to being around me after I had to tell her - out of my own personal need
for honesty - about my past wrongful desire to sexually rape my stepsister -
which I have described, analysed and apologised for previously here in my diary
data entries - And so tonight - after last night's diary data entry - I will
now continue to describe Alice in this diary data entry - as Alice is now
twenty-seven years old and was born in this city of Melbourne in this state of
Victoria in this country of Australia - and she grew up in the Melbourne suburb
of Heidelberg to parents who are both of German descent - and Alice is a thin
girl who has long golden blonde dyed hair and very pale, smooth and milky
attractive skin - and she has permanent dark circles under her eyes that come
from never going into the sunlight - and being a former heroin addict who is
now addicted to diazepam - and spending a lot of time in deep emotional
introspection and constant and very sensitive self-consciousness - and finally
from working the nighshift for over a decade - which for the last eight years
included constant mistreatment and abuse in her horrible, conservative,
corporate cafe counter sales position - and which also included five years of
being addicted to heroin and also becoming a prostitute to support her heroin
addiction - which was initially all caused by anxiety - But now - despite being
suddenly homeless because she was fired because she finally lost her temper at
one of the cruel, conservative, corporate couples in her counter sales position
at the corporate cafe where she had worked for the last eight years - Alice is
now emotionally and mentally and physically stable as she is on the drug
diazepam - However in terms of her heroin addiction - Alice told me that it
took many attempts to get through the three days of extreme pain of heroin
withdrawal - and also many doctors that she went to for help kept misdiagnosing
her cause of heroin addiction as depression - and then wrongfully prescribing
and mistreating her by giving her antidepressants to help her try deal with
being immersed back into a non-heroin version of reality again as she tried to
withdraw off of her heroin addiction - However like most heroin addicts - for
Alice it was not depression that was the cause of her heroin addiction -
because people suffering from depression will usually turn to alcohol addiction
in order to self-medicate themself - because when it comes to anxiety - it is
heroin that will relieve and take away the horrible symptoms of anxiety - and
so heroin is the chosen drug that so many people will try and self-medicate
themself with - which despite being an extremely life-numbing and
life-destroying and dangerous drug - and probably specifically because it is a
life-numbing drug in an emotional, mental and physical sense - heroin also
stops all the horrible feelings and the physical symptoms of anxiety -
especially the extreme nervousness and extreme stomach pains and problems that
are a major symptom of anxiety - however heroin is obviously dangerous,
expensive, illegal and therefore definitely not practical - and so Alice was
very fortunate to eventually find a good doctor who knew that anxiety was the
cause of her heroin addiction and prescribed her with diazepam and strong
painkillers to help her get through the three horrible days of extreme pain,
fear and constant cravings of heroin withdrawal - and then her doctor continued
to prescribe and treat her with diazepam - and Alice said that she was very
fortunate in that aspect - as that kind of good doctor was very hard to
find these days - because antidepressants are now mass marketed so much whilst
anti-anxiety benzodiazepine drugs like diazepam which actually practically stop
anxiety have been wrongfully demonised because of all the mass marketing of
antidepressants - despite the fact that antidepressants are addictive - and
also antidepressants make so many people unemotional and psychologically
abusive in an arrogant, cold, cruel, irritable, malicious and nasty way- and
antidepressants are also responsible for so much domestic and workplace
psychologically abusive behaviour - and also antidepressants are responsible
for causing anxiety in the victims of the psychologically abusive behaviour
that antidepressants make a lot of people who are on them behave in the
abovementioned psychologically abusive ways - and also antidepressants have
also caused many people to commit suicide - and finally antidepressants - even
the ones dressed up and marketed as anti-anxiety-antidepressants - will not
relieve and stop anxiety - for the only legal drugs that will treat and stop
the symptoms of anxiety are benzodiazepines like diazepam - and Alice did
gradually build up her dosage of diazepam over the last couple of years after
she got off of heroin in order to treat her anxiety - however that was always
in connection and due to the constant psychological abuse that she got from the
abusive, conservative, corporate bastards and bitches in her counter sales
position at the conservative, corporate cafe where she worked for the last
eight years until she was recently fired - however now that she is finally free
from that horrible job - Alice told me she can now slowly reduce her diazepam
dosage as she no longer needs to over-medicate herself because of all the abuse
that she was suffering from in the counter sales position of that horrible,
conservative, corporate cafe job.
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Adam Shane Lawes
