Romance
Is Rape By Seduction
By Adam
Shane Lawes
MY DIARY DIGITAL
DATA ENTRY 124 OF 145
Tonight
Alice is down in her own catacomb chamber tomb room here at the cemetery - as
she said that after the last couple of heavy emotional sharing nights together
- tonight she emotionally wants to be alone - and she also wants to do her
artwork because now she has begun to start to design the style and structure of
her dream cafe' that she wants to own and operate - And I also emotionally want
and need to be alone tonight - and I also want to do my artwork in the form of
adding to my story here in my diary data entries - because in tonight's diary
data entry of mine I want to describe the nature of the conversation that took
place between Alice and myself last night concerning my past wrongful sexual
behaviour - for last night Alice was able to do what no therapist in my life
has been able to do before - and that is to make me feel emotional regret and
cry about my past wrongful sexual behaviour - and then when Alice had finished
emotionally interrogating me and I had cried and cried so much to the point where
I was emotionally worn out - Alice then went back to her own catacomb chamber
tomb room here at the cemetery to sleep - and after such a heavy emotional
night I also fell asleep down here in my catacomb chamber tomb room as soon as
I had finished writing my last night's diary data entry - and so now tonight I
will describe the outcome of the heavy emotional confessional crying
conversation that took place last night between me and Alice - as last night
Alice firstly asked me about my past wrongful sexual behaviour - which I have
described in specific detail in my writing here in some of my previous diary
data entries - and which I verbally described in detail to Alice last night -
and after I had finished telling Alice about my past wrongful sexual behaviour
- she then had only one question that she wanted to ask me - and that is why
despite the fact that I know and feel that raping girls - and specifically
teenage girls - and also the desire for sexually raping girls - and personally
specifically teenage girls - is wrong - what is it that I personally
specifically enjoy about the wrongful bad actual act of sexually raping a girl
that turns males like me on - and especially personally specifically a younger
pubescent girl - and so I told Alice that despite the fact that I know that
sexually raping a girl is wrong - including specifically and personally a
younger pubescent girl - and I feel guilty about the desire and attempt to
sexually rape my younger, beautiful, pubescent, pretty, teenage, thirteen year old
stepsister when I was sixteen years old - and also in the past as an adult
watching legal forced teen porn sexually aroused on ice – so for me personally
and specifically - unfortunately there is something desirable and pleasurable
about hearing a girl moan in fear, pleasure and pain that sexually turns me on
like nothing else does and drives all of my bad sexual desires - and personally
specifically younger pubescent pretty teenage girls with their personally
desirable youthful natural beauty and innocence - and even though I now know
specifically why those desires that I have are wrong and I do not act on them -
and then after I had finished verbally describing and telling Alice about my
past wrongful sexual behaviour last night and then answered her one question
that she wanted to ask me - I want to now state that Alice is not a
hypocritical judgmental person - however I could see and feel her feminine and
instinctive and natural contempt for me specifically in the context of my past
wrongful sexual behaviour as I verbally told her about it last night - and all
in all I think that it was Alice's non-judgemental but feminine and instinctive
and natural contempt which came through in the tone of her voice as she asked
me her question about my past wrongful sexual behaviour - and also in the
natural expression on her face as I told her about my past wrongful sexual
behaviour - was what actually made me feel emotional regret and cry for the
first time in my life about my past wrongful sexual behaviour - and when Alice
had finished emotionally interrogating me about my past wrongful sexual
behaviour and I had cried and cried so much - Alice then gave me a comforting
hug and thanked me for telling her and crying with sincere emotional regret
about my past wrongful sexual behaviour - and then she went back to her own
catacomb chamber tomb room here at the cemetery and left me alone down here in
my catacomb chamber tomb room here at the cemetery to think and feel and write
here in my internet world-wide-web digital diary data entries.
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Adam Shane Lawes
