Romance
Is Rape By Seduction
By Adam
Shane Lawes
MY DIARY DIGITAL
DATA ENTRY 15 OF 145
After what I have witnessed and experienced in my
life from the breakdown of marriage and monogamy and the abusive perverse
pubescent wrongful bad behaviour of my troubled terrible teenage years it is
hard for me not to be cynical regarding relationships and not state that
romance is rape by seduction. For the 2000 year old Age Of Pisces has come to
an end and we are now in the often difficult and messy transition period
between The Age Of Pisces ending and the new 2000 year astrological Age Of
Aquarius beginning. And romance and coupling, which seemed to have such an
emphasis in the Age Of Pisces, seems to be coming to a messy end now as the Age
Of Pisces also ends, and not all but so many coupling relationships now are
experiencing difficulties that often lead to their eventual destruction. And
the change in divorce laws in this country in the late 1970's at the very end
of the 2000 year Age Of Pisces, and the massive breakdown of marriages and
coupling and the resulting rapid rise in broken homes, is all the proof that I
need to show that the age of coupling is in a massive amount of trouble as the
Age Of Aquarius with its shifted metaphysical evolutionary emphasis upon
individuals and individuals in groups begins. And in this difficult and messy
transition period with the 2000 year old Age of Pisces ending and the new 2000
year Age Of Aquarius just beginning, there is obviously a lot of confusion,
lack of satisfaction and disenchantment, as too many people still try to hold
onto the Age Of Pisces influences including the Age Of Pisces religions and
their outdated beliefs. However the more that those people so desperately try
to hold onto outdated Age Of Pisces beliefs and their lifestyles, the harder it
will get for them and eventually it will result in disenchantment and often
lead to a horrible and bitter end. And in my life I have witnessed this
breakdown in coupling relationships as occurring increasingly in even more
rapid and messier ways. For example, the family homes that I was brought up in
were all troubled and disintegrating when I was in them - the worst being that
horrible stepfamily home that I lived with for six years from the age of 11
years old to 16 years old. In addition to this, I can never stay in a coupling
relationship for more than 3 months because always after 3 months I got bored
and the passion goes and then I either cheated and/or got out of the coupling
relationship - no matter how much I was infatuated including lustfully with the
girl at the start of the relationship - So from personal experience, I believe
that there is no such thing as love in coupling relationships and instead that
illusion of the concept of love is really just lust and infatuation - and for
me personally that lust and infatuation always wears off after 3 months - And
so now I have made a pact with myself not to ever get involved in another
coupling relationship again due to this fact. In addition to this, in my life I
have consequently watched nearly every coupling relationship in my life be
ruined and corrupted in some form - and even when the couples choose to
continue to stay together - most often due to either being in too much of a
comfort zone (despite the passion in their relationship having ended a long
time ago and replaced instead with jealousy and fighting), and/or the couple
wrongfully stay together for financial reasons - which is also often an aspect
of staying in the comfort zone of their failed coupling relationship instead of
making the often difficult but necessary break into freedom. In addition to
this, from personal experience in observing the breakdown of coupling
relationships in this age, there are usually 5 stages to coupling
relationships. The first is when the couple first get together in the stage of
infatuation (which is the only stage that I have personally experienced because
I always get out of the coupling relationship after 3 months because that's
when the passion personally ends for me and it is a sign for me to get out of
the coupling relationship then and there, and never allow myself to be
emotionally attached to another person because I believe that is a sign of
weakness that will result in your downfall into the trap of attachment, which
will result in the disintegration of your personality and passions, and which
also no matter what, always has a bitter end). The second stage that I have
witnessed in coupling relationships is when the couples are comfortably
together and are also so often smug and nasty in their coupling comfort zone.
The third stage of a coupling relationship that I have witnessed is when the
lust and infatuation begins to wear off and the comfort for the couple is no
longer enough to satisfy them, and if they choose to stay together, they then
become often increasingly nasty and bitter, both towards each other, and also
often towards people around them - especially if you are not in a coupling
relationship and have your personal freedom unlike the couple in a coupling
relationship. The fourth stage of the coupling relationship is when the
fighting increases in the coupling relationship and more than likely, affairs
and cheating on each other begins in the coupling relationship - which often
when brought out into the open, too many couples still continue to try and stay
together, often due to guilt and staying in their coupling comfort zone,
despite the obvious massive breakdown of their coupling relationship. And the
final fifth stage of the coupling relationship, is the couple either growing
old, bored and bitter together - Or the couple finally ending their
coupling relationship. So now, the 2000 year old Age of Pisces has just
finished and we are now in the messy transition period as the 2000 year Age Of
Aquarius is just beginning - And it is obvious that we need alternatives to
conventional conservative coupling relationships, in whatever form, which are
no longer working - astrologically, historically and practical speaking. One
alternative to coupling relationships is the concept of intimate relationships
in a non-monogamous context. The question now is how do we propose to go about
forming alternative ways of intimacy in a non-monogamous and non-traditional
context. Firstly, the jealousy factor that so many people suffer from must be
overcome - because jealousy is truly pathetic and a sign of insecurity in the
self motivated by an unattainable need to try and find passion and/or happiness
in a another person, when instead people should seek to find passion and/or
happiness in themselves - Because passion and/or happiness can never be found
outside the self and in another person. Secondly, having grown up in broken
homes, it is obvious that in the breakdown of coupling relationships and the
rapid rising of broken homes and children being brought up by parents who are
not their own blood parents, and who therefore resent them and abuse their
presence, just as I was so badly abused growing up by my stepmother, means that
it is necessary to find appropriate and non-abusive ways, patterns of behaviour
and laws to stop children being abused in the rapidly ever increasing rise of
broken homes in this day and age, as the concept and function of coupling
relationships increasingly breaks down, and therefore children are ever
increasingly growing up under parental care by people who are not their blood
parents, and therefore way too often and usually out of jealousy, the non-blood
parent(s) resent the presence of such a child and therefore abuse that child.
And this is a serious issue that needs to be addressed because obviously
children still need to be born into the world, however it is not an issue for
me to personally and practically deal with and find the answers to - Because I
neither want children, as I like my personal freedom and personal time too
much, and also I know that I would not be an abusive parent - but I do know
that I would be a neglectful parent due to my personal need and passion to
spend so much time alone and including also on my artwork. And we all have our
own passions, interests and lifestyle choices, and there will obviously be many
people out there who are thrust into relationships in which they are bringing
up children that are not of their own blood and therefore they will have to
find the practical, compassionate answers to the lifestyle choice that they
have chosen which resulted in them bringing up children that are not of their
own blood. So it is obvious, that as the 2000 year old Age of Pisces now ends
and we are now in the often confusing and messy transition period as we head
into the 2000 year Age of Aquarius, the future, especially the immediate
future, is going to be a difficult and confusing and often messy time in terms
of intimate relationships. However, as I have stated, one possible alternative
to coupling for those that want relationships is non-monogamous intimate
relationships - because I have been in some intimate relationships with
girlfriends where I was very sexually turned on and aroused and so were they
when I watched some of my girlfriends have sex with other males and they
watched me have sex with other females - and also consensually sexually acting
out rape sex (which was first instigated by a girlfriend who had been
previously sexually raped by a male and who got legal justice for it and then
asked me to act out forcefully sexually raping her which we both got intensely
sexually aroused and pleasured by having this rape sex) and also with other
girlfriends having consensual threesomes and gang-bangs and making porn and having
sex parties at home and having public sex in nightclubs on drugs which is all
very sexually intense, pleasurable and passionate.
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Adam Shane Lawes
