Romance Is Rape By Seduction
By Adam Shane Lawes
MY DIARY DIGITAL DATA ENTRY 2 OF 145
I am homeless and filled with constantly chaotically alternating anger and anxiety. So now with nothing else to do and to try and make myself feel better, I am now going to record my thoughts in this digital diary of mine using my Apple iPhone - which is the only thing of economic value that I now have left after being terminated from my job. I found out that I was homeless two days ago here in Melbourne, Australia when I received a phone call from my supermarket store manager where I had been stacking supermarket shelves at night doing horrible physically heavy and hard and mentally mundane manual labour since I dropped out of school as a troubled teenager with no self-confidence left after years of horrific teen abuse to try for anything more in life, and all the heavily disguised and hidden hope that I had of being an artist in the past was wasted wondering in unfulfilled artistic ambition with too many years spent lost struggling to survive working mostly horrible physically heavy and mentally mundane manual labour work that I hate along with too much drug use, drug abuse and drug addiction. And for the past week I had become increasingly sick with a bad case of the flu, and I was off work sick for 3 days due to the severity of the flu that I have - which would have also made it even more difficult to do the extremely horrible heavy and hard and mentally mundane manual labour work of lifting heavy boxes stacking supermarket shelves at night. However my supermarket store manager, who is an Australian originally from India, is a cruel, corrupt corporate, class driven person. And he is a cruel, corrupt, corporate person to both people of non-Indian origin and people of Indian origin, who work in the store in which he is the store manager, and who do not allow themselves to become enslaved by his cruel, corrupt corporate form of management. And my former Indian store manager has hired a lot of Indian students to work for him in the store in which he is the store manager - which is good for those Indian students as those Indian students are studying for their university degrees that cost them so much more financially than Australian citizens of any origin have to pay for their university degrees - and this is because of the greed of universities and the exploitation of international students - and in addition to this the Indian students also have to pay for their living costs here and are currently legally limited to a 20 hour limit working week. However there also seems to be an ulterior motive to my former Indian store manager hiring so many students who are studying here from India - because my former Indian store manager treats many of the Indian students that work for him as if they are not working for an hourly rate - as those Indian students are legally meant to be and should be - but they are instead manipulated by fear by my former Indian store manager to do unpaid work in order to keep their jobs - and thus my former Indian store manager wrongfully exploits and uses many of the Indian students that he has employed to work in his store. And in addition to this, despite the majority of the students from India being honest and hard working - even despite being unfairly exploited by my former Indian store manager and also not liking him because they see him as a cruel, corrupt person - (one student from India, who is a very honest and sincere person, said to me that the Indian store manager is one of the meanest people that he has ever met). However, despite the majority of the students from India who work for my former Indian store manager being honest and hard working, even though they do not like my former Indian store manager - There is unfortunately a small group of students from India, and also a group of former students from India who now have permanent residency and who work in the store as permanent workers for my former Indian store manager, and who are all very loyal to my former Indian store manager - and they are just as corrupt and conniving as my former Indian store manager - and they do some of my former Indian store manager's corrupt corporate work for him - for example those specific Indian students will tell lies about Australian workers to set them up so that my former Indian store manager can then easily terminate them - and also those specific Indian students without permanent residency here in Australia also then try to get their PR here in Australia by trying to be informants for the Australian government by telling lies about Australians to try and curry favour with the Australian government so that they can get their PR based on the government corruption that they are used to dealing with back in their homeland of India - and also in the workplace that specific group of workers originally from India also receive special treatment from my former Indian store manager - which then makes the workload on everyone else so much harder - and they also try to make the workplace and workload as difficult as they possibly can to those in the store who don't allow themselves to become enslaved by my former Indian store manager's form of cruel, corporate corruption. And despite the fact that I am obviously not from India and nor am I of Indian origin, my former Indian store manager treated me as if I was someone that he could constantly exploit and make my life as horrible as he possible could - and the reason for this was most likely that my former Indian store manager has an extreme class based view of the world - and because I am from a poor background, my former Indian store manager wrongfully treated me like I was a non-Indian version of an ‘untouchable’ - and thus my former Indian store manager enslaved and exploited me and worked me into the ground until I became extremely rundown and sick because he was constantly threatening me with my job and looking for any excuse that he could to terminate me, which included making me do masses and masses of unpaid hours of work - which I stupidly did out of fear of losing my job and being made homeless - like I am now. So for the past year I was worked into the ground until I became increasingly rundown, and then finally very sick now with this bad case of the flu. However my former Indian store manager rang me up and accused me of lying about being sick and he then accused me of trying to use up my paid sick leave - and then my former Indian store manager told me that I had been terminated and replaced. And when my former Indian store manager phoned me up and told me this, I finally swore and cursed him with all my pent up anger, and told him that I hoped that one of his deities, specifically Kali, would punish him for his wrongful behaviour. And then my former Indian store manager then told me that he would be writing down my reason for termination as "misconduct" and faxing it immediately to the Government unemployment office. Which later on yesterday I found out to be true, as when I rang to immediately put my name down and apply for unemployment benefits, I was told that I would have to wait for 2 months for unemployment benefits because I had been terminated from my job for misconduct. So with me being now unemployed, and my rent being due at the room in the rooming house that I had been renting, and me being unable to pay it for an impossibly long and out of the question period of 2 months, I packed up my belongings, handed the key to my room in, and now I am homeless and hiding out here in constantly confusing and alternating anger, anxiety and angst at Melbourne Cemetery.
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