Romance
Is Rape By Seduction
By
Adam Shane Lawes
MY DIARY DIGITAL
DATA ENTRY 6 OF 145
It is night again and I am back here hidden inside
my hidden grave gap 'room'. Today I slept straight through the whole day, no
doubt because I'd had hardly any sleep since I have been made homeless, and
also because I have been working nights for the last nine years, until I was
unfairly terminated from my job by my former store manager who is originally
from India. Also for the first time since I have been made homeless, I have
been hidden and had the chance to sleep without being worried about having to wake
up and hide in the daylight when the cemetery is open. So earlier tonight,
after I woke up, I went to the cemetery toilet, washed, shaved and then I went
to the church charity meal van and got my daily-nightly meal, and then I came
back here again, and I will now be wide awake for the rest of the night. So
tonight I would like to write down what I did on that first day when I found
out that I was homeless. Firstly when I found out that I had been both
terminated from my job and also denied unemployment benefits because of my
corrupt store manager who is originally from India, I felt like I was going to
faint, and I just sat there with my head spinning. But I couldn't take sitting
at home anymore stressing, so I came here to the peace and quiet and tranquility
of Melbourne Cemetery, as I have always done when I have gotten too stressed
whilst living here in Melbourne. And after sitting for a few hours I started to
think about what I should do, and I realised that my first priority was
obviously finding somewhere safe to stay while I am homeless. And I thought of
trying homeless centres, but I didn't even know where any were, and it was too
late for me to start looking. So then I realised that the cemetery would be the
best place for me to stay for my first night of being homeless, and until I can
sort out my circumstances and find somewhere to live. So unable to pay anymore
rent, before I went and handed in my keys at the private rooming house where I
had been renting a room - I went and sold all of my electrical goods, and with
the money I went and bought a cut-throat razor and a mirror to shave with, a
black waterproof sleeping bag, a black waterproof hooded coat, two pairs of
black thermal wear, and a black beanie. I then shaved off the horrible corporate
cut short shaped style of haircut that I'd had for too many years, since I'd
unfortunately had to cut off all my long hair when I moved to Melbourne due to
my former supermarket store manager's insistence and threat to my job. And I
used the cut-throat razor that I had just bought to shave all my hair off to
the scalp, so that I could finally get rid of that horrible corporate worker's
style of haircut and not have to worry about walking around and living homeless
with a messy unkept corporate worker's haircut. And I will use the black beanie
to keep my head warm in the cold weather. After I had shaven my head to the
scalp, I then went and put on one of my black suits - consisting of black
trousers, the black thermal wear underneath, and a black pointed suit tail
coat, and then my black military style boots, and then I put my other black
suit, the cut-throat razor and mirror, and my Apple iPhone in my black
waterproof bag. And then with my sleeping bag, black coat and bag of
belongings, I handed in my key to my old room at the rooming house where I had
been living, and I came here to Melbourne Cemetery for that first night of
being made homeless.
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Adam Shane Lawes
