Romance
Is Rape By Seduction
By
Adam Shane Lawes
MY DIARY
DIGITAL DATA ENTRY 68 OF 145
Tonight I want to add to my detailed description of
my malicious Venus Taurus as star sign stepmother that I made in my previous
diary data entry. For in stating that my stepmother is a malicious Venus Taurus
as star sign person - I am obviously not stating that all people who are born
under the star-sign of Taurus and the planet Venus - which also includes Libra as
star-sign people - are all malicious Venus people - for that is obviously not
the case and the way existence works and functions as - However in my life and
personal experiences - for some reason I have come across and had to deal with
a lot of people who are born under the two star signs of Taurus and Libra -
which are both ruled by the planet Venus - and many of which have been cruel,
malicious people - and who despite their obvious many different individual,
subjective, personality traits - they display some main identifying similar
malicious Venus behavioural traits - such as those Libra as star sign people
who are malicious - greedy - and lack any intensity in their personality
because they are so romantic relationship driven and they cling to romantic
relationships both because Venus is the planet of romance and also because they
are insecure and they are afraid to spend time alone developing their
personality and themselves - and also their often innate insecurity makes them
status driven in a cruel, corrupt and nasty way in which they abuse power -
like my former Libran as star sign store manager who oppressed, used, exploited
and then terminated me from my last job and made me homeless - and which I have
described him and some of these specific types of wrongfully behaving Libran as
star sign people in detail previously here in some of my earlier diary data
entries - And in terms of malicious Venus in the star sign of Taurus - I have
described how that exists in detail - in last night's diary data entry about my
stepmother who was born under the star sign of Taurus that is ruled by the
planet Venus - However after I ran away from home at the age of sixteen years
old - I decided then and there after all of the horrors from romance and
relationships that I had witnessed growing up to make a personal pact and
promise myself to never allow myself to become weak by being emotionally or
mentally attached to another person – So I got a black tattoo on my chest over
my heart - in the shape of a black outlined heart with the words “romance is
rape by seduction” written in black ink inside that black outlined heart tattoo
- and I then promised myself to permanently adhere to my three month rule -
where I have to always end every romantic relationship after three months so as
to avoid becoming emotionally and mentally attached to another person - in
order to avoid the horrors of romantic relationships - and to keep and maintain
and increase my individual personality and prevent it from being weakened by
romantic relationships. And in that first year after I ran away from home and
moved back across the border to the Gold Coast - from the age I was sixteen
years old I have gone out with five girls that I was attracted to and liked -
but which I ended the romantic relationship with each of them after three
months because of my three month limit romantic relationship rule - and even
though each of those girls was very different with their own individual
personality - they all behaved in some similar ways - specifically in that they
did not like me spending time alone to do my artwork and they would
consequently often nag me in similar ways to get my attention and stop me from
doing my artwork - and so in those five romantic relationships with those five
girls during that period - I developed my metaphorical and purely psychological
matador way of behaving and dealing with the nagging that those five girls that
I was in romantic relationships with used to do to me - in order to stop myself
losing my temper and getting violently angry at them for nagging me because I
hate being nagged - and then after a year and those five romantic relationships
that I had with those five girls I spent the night analysing romantic
relationships and specifically those five girls that I had been in a romantic
relationship with - and how I mentally behaved like a matador with them when
they would nag and annoy me – and I then had a kind of revelation where I saw
that despite their very different individual personality and appearances -
those five girls that I was in romantic relationship's with - all nagged and
annoyed me in the same way - just like my stepmother did - and so overwhelmed
by curiosity I then called each of the girls and asked them for their date of
birth - and to my shock and surprise those five girls that I had been in a
romantic relationship with throughout that previous year were all Taurus as
star sign girls - just like my stepmother - and this obviously tripped me out
because I was attracted to those five different Taurus as star sign girls - but
I did not know that their star sign was Taurus - And so that is how I initially
personally became interested in astrology.
© Copyright
Adam Shane Lawes
