Romance
Is Rape By Seduction
By Adam
Shane Lawes
MY DIARY DIGITAL
DATA ENTRY 83 OF 145
Now I am starting to feel a lot of anxiety - and at
what in particular I do not know - however the anxiety is constantly there now
just below the surface - clawing and scraping away at my thoughts - and on the
way back from getting my nightly meal from the church charity food van at the
city's market's industrial warehouse carpark - I snuck into an abandoned
construction site and took a large sheet of industrial grade black plastic -
and then I brought it back here to my subterranean catacomb chamber room here
at the cemetery - and then I cloaked the sheet of black plastic over my icon
statue of the dark angel Lilith - as seeing my statue of Lilith shrouded in her
new black cloak and hidden down here in secrecy - somehow helps stop the
constant anxiety that I am now feeling from overwhelming me - however it does
not make the anxiety go away - which worsens whenever I have to leave the
cemetery - and which now is definitely only to go and get my nightly meal - for
when I walk along the streets - even though it is dark and there are only a few
people who pass me out in the streets at night - the anxiety inside me rises up
and increases and nearly overwhelms me - even though those unknown people who
pass me in the streets are no threat to me and usually do not even notice that
I am walking in the shadows - So I do not know what is wrong with me - as I am
now feeling so insecure and uncomfortable and I feel threatened by this
constant anxiety and the harshness of living and our existence that I can now
constantly feel.
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